Bring It!

You’ll see it

“Trying to forget someone you love, is like trying to remember someone you never met”

Being with you was more than I could have ever asked for. The times we had will be nothing more than precious memories stored as I can no longer endure the fact that you will never come back, love is a mirrored image that I cannot see without you, reflections of the world we saw together, are now scattered pictures in my mind. If love is blind then why can I only see love when you are mine & if love is real then why am I faking like I am not entitled to the way that I feel? It seems that our glass has fallen to the last grain, half empty and half full of the love in which remains, contemplating if I love, will it ever be the same, to continue on this journey without you has brought me pain, but I’ll keep staring at this mirror till I can see myself again.

To the top.

Everyday life hands us tests. Some of these are unexpected and some are anticipated. Through it all the only thing that matters is how are you going to answer. Are you preparing to succeed or to fail? It all depends on what you want to happen and what result you want out of it. In the beginning we automatically think about the tasks at hand. We focus so much on how bad the situation is and fail to analyze what needs to be done from that moment on. It’s like looking at a stairway we must climb in order to reach the top, in our heads we think, “damn! It will take forever to get there!” but have you ever reached the top and looked down? You saw what you accomplished and how many steps it took but you did it! Now the challenge is completed. It is now a past challenge that you worked through and now that you’ve done it, you can now climb an even higher set of stairs to reach a new future goal. The process is the hardest but victory could never be sweeter. I have to admit that there have been times in my life that I set a goal and cut my journey short because of how hard it was, I look back at those times and realize that the reason why I didn’t finish is because I didn’t want it as bad as I thought I did. You see, these challenges in life are either going to make you or break you. If you feel like you are going to fail then 9 times out of 10 you are going to fail, but if you keep telling yourself you are going to make it everyday, every single moment you feel like quitting then chances are you are going to reach the top. I doesn’t matter how long it takes or how slow you go, just don’t stop!

never let it get to you

“Sometimes you feel tired, feel weak, and when you feel weak, you feel like you wanna just give up, but you gotta search within you, you gotta find that inner strength and just pull that shit out of you and get that motivation to not give up and not be a quitter, no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face and collapse.” -Eminem (Till I Collapse)

Work hard for everything you want, all the dreams you’re chasing and all the goals you’ve set for yourself, do not tell yourself you won’t make it. You have to be able to believe in yourself no matter how bad the situation. All of these set backs, all of these things that constantly slow you down will only test how bad you want it and how much more are you willing to take in order to get you there. Live everyday as if you are racing time and never let anything interfere with you’re rhythm. Stay positive and keep a clean mindset, thinking negatively will only lead to negative outcomes.It doesn’t matter how fucked up everything seems, try to make everything a lesson, and find the best way to look past the bullshit and find some good out of it. After all what doesn’t kill you will make you stronger and what hurts you is only pain you lead yourself into. Be the person you say that you are, not the person everyone says you could be. If people are hating then you must be doing something right! Be patient and understanding, always know that things don’t last forever and the more you think about doing something it will never be accomplished. So keep moving forward and never look back. If you’re still stuck in the past then how will you ever expect to have a future. Put all the bullshit aside and put your best foot forward, keep on keeping on.

Nothing Negative.

First of all, this is going to be one of my many blogs that I will be posting & I’d like to take the time to thank anyone who cares enough to keep updated with my life! :)

So far the summer of 2010 has been the most productive and challenging season of my life so far and it is not over yet. From the very start of my summer I was walking around at my heaviest weight of 222 pounds. One day I woke up and looked at myself in the mirror and asked myself are you satisfied? Obviously not, considering the fact that I looked like a father! I finally took the initiative to start a new active lifestyle and follow through with it and as of July 19, 2010, I now walk around at approximately 185 pounds and it has only been about 40 days. It’s like I gave up being fat for lent or something like that. Although I may seem contempt with my weight, I want to see how much farther I can go and with the pace that I’m going right now, nothing can slow me down. My mind is focused on reaching my goal of being 165-170. So results will come soon enough.

Another significant change to my life, is that I’ve completely stopped doing any type of drugs including alcohol and boy I’ll tell you, it feels so good to be sober and be able to have the strength to finally say no. I’ve actually been thinking of quitting for quite some time now and I have finally followed through with it. I have to admit I had to take a break from some of my friends but only because I did not want to take any risks of temptation, but I have kept them very close since then. I am not against any smokers or drinkers so do not get me wrong.

So far, I am happy with where my life is right now and I will continue to keep pushing forward and never look back on the mistakes that I have made in the past. I have learned to take each and every one of those times and transform them in to life learned lessons. I feel stronger than ever. My motive is to stay positive every single moment of my life even through the roughest times, because I learned that living in the past will never provide a better future for myself. I’m having fun along the way as well and I have be accompanied by new friends and have been supported by old friends as well. So for those of you who have helped me, I’d like to thank you for all that you’ve done and please continue to help me push forward.